Day 6 ...

1/14/12  I was told that when he feels good, get him out of the house.  Go do something with him, so that he doesn't get depressed sitting in the house all the time.  

So I did.

  We went to the book store to see if they had any Testicular Cancer books.  We came home with Lance Armstrong's Its not about the bike.  I am also thinking about ordering.  One Lump or Two by Darren Couchman.  We are both going to read the book.  

We then tackled Walmart...(ugh)  

Poor Jason has been battling a massive migraine and can't take anything but Tylenol.  I think I will be calling the doctor on Monday and asking for something... I hate seeing him like this and I have a feeling this is only the beginning.  

We came home and took up residence on the couch for the rest of the day. 

 This is how I could spend everyday.  

We got a sweet card with a gift card to dunkin donuts from our distant friend Melissa

& Jason & Samantha sent a iTunes gift card.... They totally rock!!

DAY 5... FREE AT LAST..THANK GOD ALMIGHTY HIS ARM IS FREE AT LAST!!!!

LOL!   1/13/12

Word of the day: Emotional.

He is, I am, the kids are.  Its a group effort.

He is because he doesn't want to be there.  

He doesn't want to go through this anymore.  

He is worried about his career, his future, & his health.

I am, because my day started off with someone telling me that "life is life" ... I would like to really tell that person off but because I respect her husband too much I wont.  I will shut my mouth (I know, some of you are totally shocked) and I will walk away.

The kids are emotional because they can feed off us.  

They are doing well though. 

He is free.  His poor arm is free of IV's for a whole 3 days!  YAHOO!  

8am appointment, started with a CBC count (which looked awesome)  Weighted in at 173.1 (down more), blood pressure was at 131/63 (not to shabby) and his temp 97.4.  All around a great start to an emotional day.

I know a bunch of you are following this blog to keep watch on how things are, and we totally appricate it.  The support we have is, well I am speechless.
It makes me keep on going, which helps me keep Jason going.

Day 4... seems okay today.

1/12/12  We had an 8:15am appointment.  Jason weighted in at 175.9 (less then yesterday) his blood pressure 140/68, you want to know why... he had to get a new IV... he gets so nervous.  His temp was perfect 98.3.  Jason did really well today.  The meds he gets 1st make him really sick to his stomach, but after that he tolerates to them all the rest.  The nurse (Luis) and Jason joke all day.  I texted him that he had 1hr left and he sent me this:

Apparently it is called a "cheese sandwich" Jason called it a cold Mac & Cheese sandwich aka NASTY! 

We are home, rested, now fed and working on getting kids done with chores, bathed, and in bed.  

Sorry for the short and sweet....but momma is tired today.  

Off to tend to the kids and of course the patient. 

Day #3

1/11/12  I think we are both are realizing that this is real, we are both emotionally & physically over done and sadly it just began.  Good night sleeping last night.  He slept later then I thought.

We arrived for our 8:15 appointment. He seemed better with his blood pressure (130/63)  today then yesterday.  I thought he was going to have a temp but he didn't (98.4) Weighted in at 176.5 (he secretly had a nervous breakdown) I waited till he was all set up and had his IV running before heading to work for a few hours.

Today was a little more emotional.  Really for no reason but the fact that, he is getting Chemo, it spread, he hates having someone wait on him, he hates sitting still ...  this sucks.  But we will get through it.

Chemo lasted from 8:15-1:30.  We are home,  he took a nap and I got the kids situated from school and we all played a game of UNO and Go Fish (no I did not let him win!)  We ate dinner, thanks to our friends The Martin's,  we ate a delicious Spanish chicken, rice & veggie casserole!  Thanks Erin, you rock!!

Everyone at work has now offered to make us dinner a couple times... seriously can I work with a better group of people?  I don't think so.  The love and support we have from them (and all of you) keep us going and help us look forward, instead of giving up.  THANK YOU!

I had a fellow Coastie wife ask me for our address to send a card.
The Bitler's
206 Oak Ridge Drive
Havelock, NC 28532

Day 2... I can see this is going to get harder and harder.

1/10/12  He woke up in good spirits.  Had a good night.  Came home took his Zofran (nausea medication) he ate dinner, and we relaxed on the couch till bed.  He slept well expect for he woke up at 2am and had a hard time falling back to sleep.

We arrived at the Raab Clinic for our 9am appointment.  He was called back, weight was taken (174 3+lbs from yesterday) blood pressure when we arrived was elevated (156/64) but once in the chair and comfortable it lowered (123/54) He had a hard time with a medication that was pushed threw the IV, he said it hurt, we later found out this was Benadryl.  He quickly became tired, so I left for work.  He kicked me out today.  Told me I would be better off busy at work, then sitting there staring at him.  (I think he knew Dr.V was in the office and I stress over not being there when he is.)   I checked on him at 1pm and he was super tired and antsy.  He doesn't do well sitting still for so long.  Luis hung the last bag of flush and I went back to work to finish up.  Right now as I type... he is fast asleep on the couch.  I hate seeing him like this.

I am not sure what I would do without my work gang.  They definitely help me get through the day.

** I want to say thank you for all of you who are sending us letters and messages and quick posts on FB and here.  They have made both of us smile!  Keep them coming.  I will try to get back to everyone.  I will also be printing them out for our Cancer Journey Scrapbook.