I <\3 Valentine's Day

I hate it

I think its useless

We have never celebrated it

This year I thought I would surpise him and take him out to dinner and yesterday when asked what he was doing on Valentine's Day, his reply was "going to Krav"

GREAT... off to cancel the reservations.

ARGH!

WHATever right... what made me think we would be different this yr. I mean, we have never celebrated it. We were two broke ass kids in high school, then two broke as kids with a baby...see the pattern....lol.

=)

One yr later....

Ok .. so as most of you already know I had Gastric Bypass surgery on February 6, 2007. I had the Roux-en-Y Gastric Bypass (RGB)This operation is the most common and successful combined weight loss surgery in the United States. First, the surgeon creates a small stomach pouch to restrict food intake. Next, a Y-shaped section of the small intestine is attached to the pouch to allow food to bypass the lower stomach, the duodenum (the first segment of the small intestine), and the first portion of the jejunum (the second segment of the small intestine). This reduces the amount of calories and nutrients the body absorbs.


It has been a trying year, with learning new things, coming to grips with it mentally, and I am not even completely 100% gripped yet. It is a physical change along with mental and emotional. But I survived and most importantly my family survived. I have lost 72% of my excess weight. I am down 7 sizes in pants. My BMI went from 44 to 31 and still going down. I went from a 3x shirt to xl which is a HUGE deal, that means I can shop where NORMAL girls shop.

I am truly happy that I did this and I know I could not have done this without Jason by my side. I was afraid and still kind of am to admit that I had to do this.. only because I felt like I failed at loosing it myself. But I have a great support of family and friends that have backed me up with this!

Sorry the pictures are not better ...the 1st one is my hospital picture. This is the awful picture that is on the front of my folder at the hospital...so ashamed. The next picture is me...-80lbs down and one year from picture #1. I still have 30 more to lose but its a work in progress

Mommies Weekend

OH this week will be slow I can tell you that much.

Next weekend, myself, my Potter, and my neighbor are all going off island for mommies weekend!! YEAH!! We were suppose to be joined my our other friend but circumstances beyond her control are forcing her to stay home. I mean she IS 8.5 months pregnant!! LOL!

We love you Lard and we will buy you presents!!

We have no game plan really, except shopping and of course we are meeting up with one of my favorite chicks Jenny!! SO excited (girl we snapping some photos!)

So much to look at, so much to price and so much to buy!!

and off the subject: Jason and myself NEVER celebrate Valentine's Day. I feel like it is an over priced holiday, why roses cost that much on that one day is beyond me...so we never did and never will (so I thought) The other day we were talking and he said for Valentine's Day, my birthday and or Christmas I wasn't getting anything . I replied that we don't do Valentine's Day and he said "or so you think" ... ... ... WTF! He better not, because I don't have SHIT to give him...now I am in a scrabble to get something to be prepared... He better be joking!! LOL!!

Random talking about PCS

So again we were talking about PCS'ing (for all of you that don't know what I am talking about its when the military moves you to your next location.) We were on the way home from the grocery store and started talking....and didn't stop until we got home. I started with my rant of before the moving truck comes I am doing an over haul of toys, Jason went and agreed and Ethan sat in the back of the truck pissed!

Then we talked about where we wanted to go, we agree on all of them, I am hesitant with one only because I "know" someone there and we "don't" get along (or so I think)

We talked about if we get orders to a "certain" place that I am going off island and buying stuff that I want because it will be hard to get it when we get there.

That started a new discussion of what I wanted and the order of things, you know..the order Jason wants them! LOL! I want a Armoire for my TV, or we can get a Flat Screen but I want a table for under neath but I want one with baskets or draws. So that is 2 of the things...and I want a new bed...I feel like I deserve a new bed. We have been together for 10 yrs and never bought a new bed. We had my "childhood" bed for evah!!! EWW..it was so OLD!

We got home and I found a flat screen, and it was equal to the price of some air line tickets we are looking at purchasing, and I said we could get the TV and pass on the trip ... that was a NO go from the king. LOL! He would rather pass on both, not because he doesn't want the TV or to go on this trip but because he doesn't want to spend the $$. LOL! I know he doesn't read this...so I am thinking I might just put money aside that he doesn't know about and give it to him for his birthday. Anyone willing to contribute...all donations are excepted! =}

Back to the main topic of PCSing, we have such a hard place because Jason is getting ready to take a test that is major! If he places high and they move quickly, we will be moving most likely to a boat. Meaning Jason will be underway once again. Which I am OK with. He needs it and in this house, his career comes 1st and then the kids with school & sports, then me...because honestly...I can pretty much handle it all. I did tell him that when we do move I am staying home w/ Jocelyn for a yr. I have been working since she was 5 weeks old. I say I wont work but I know I will. As long as it can handle that I will be a single mother at times and my kids are #1 in my world!

I am excited to leave the rock yet again, I will miss my friends so terribly but I KNOW that I will stay in touch with them (they know who they are) and that they WILL come and visit!! My cousin/sister/best friend swears she will not come see me but I know she will, because not only does she love me but I have her 2 god children!! heehee hee!

So I am ending this with this vent...we have lived here since June 2006 and my parents have yet to come up...we are only 7 hrs away. I miss them...why can't they come visit?????

Friends....

Where would you be with out your friends???

Me, well let me tell you were I would be without my friends this week... sitting in the dark closet crying. I have had a HELL of a week and Christy and Lauren (aka Potter and Lard) pulled me threw...not nicely but they did. Well one was nice and the other was brutally honest =) I have had an emotional and sensitive week, crying, yelling, barking responses and whine and that has all been daily. LOL. they (poor things) have had to sit and listen (or pretend) to me ALL week.

Today...(let me take a deep breathe) ... Today I had to report to work at 8 (I am not in till 9) Yes I know that the normal working class citizens all go to work well before 9 but I don't! I had to come to work to get payroll done so my boss/bosses could go on vacation. Well I normally drop Jocelyn off at daycare at 830, then run down to the boat to drop Hase off, then off to work I go....well this morning I had to get Joce and myself ready an hour early, pick Jason up then drop Jocelyn off at 730 then go to work. Sounds fresh and clean, right.....NO... I had to get Lard to come pick me up to take me to go get the car from the boat (lost yet...let me fill you in. Jason dropped me off then gave the car to Hase, who works till 6 and I work till 3..get were I am going with this) so she comes and gets me....I vent in the car...leave in tears because she makes me laugh. She drops me off at the truck and I follow her go grab a sandwich.....and realize I locked my keys in my purse in the office.... I have my car keys...but no bag, that is the keeper of the office key and the money... What The Fuck!

:signing: The sun'll come out♥Tomorrow♥Bet your bottom dollar♥That tomorrow♥ There'll be sun! ♥Just thinkin' about ♥Tomorrow ♥Clears away the cobwebs, ♥ And the sorrow ♥'Til there's none!♥ When I'm stuck a day♥ That's gray, ♥ And lonely, ♥I just stick out my chin♥And Grin, ♥And Say, ♥Oh ♥The sun'll come out Tomorrow♥So ya gotta hang on♥'Til tomorrow♥ Come what may♥ Tomorrow! ♥Tomorrow! ♥ I love ya♥ Tomorrow!♥ You're always♥ A day♥ A way!