Summing it all up

I can't believe it is going to be November already! In a month we are going to be parents to an eight year old ...when the hell did that happen? My baby, my sweet little boy is going to be 8! My little innocent Ethan, who the other day said someone was a homo ( I thought I was going to die) Had to explain to him that it was NOT a nice word at all and we (in this family) do not judge people because how they choose to live their lives. He said "I didn't know it meant that, I'm sorry" note to self: watch what you say in front of your kids because it will come back to bite you in the ass sooner then later :0)

Back to my sweet innocent little boy, who wants a "grossed out" theme for his party. Of course "what baby wants baby gets" Jason said yes so here I go to order it. Its gross. It comes with this thing you put on your nose and it drips candy down into your mouth (snot) The pinata` is a nose with boogers. The plates have a kid with puke, trash can cups, the center piece is a toilet. EWW!

So to sum things up... in 3 months not only will we be broke (2 birthdays and Christmas) but we will be proud parents of an 8 yr old and a 2 yr old. Time flies. Cherish your kids and hug and kiss them everyday!

-79lbs

So on Saturday was my 8month Surgiversary! Not sure where 8 months went already but I am glad it did. I am officially down 79lbs with 23 more to go to my 2nd goal. My 1st goal to those that don't know as to be 199, that was one of my proudest moments. 23 more to go and I feel like a new person, still the fat girl but a new fat girl!



I still have issues with my self image but then again what girl doesn't. I talked to my friend that had it 7yrs ago and she said that you never get rid of the fat girl syndrome but you learn to cope with it better then you did before.




Well I am (in my head) still the biggest one in the picture, out with the girls and of course the heavy wife. But I know I am loved ... Jason said I am the incridable shrinking women. I love him! He has been my #1 cheerleader threw this whole process. Never walked away, or had anything negative to say. Always had my back. I thank him but I know not enough.




Well anyway...enough about me.... LOL!

4 Yrs ago today...

4 Yrs ago today...

I lost my mommy!

I miss her terribly!

I wish she could be here to see the kids. She adored Ethan! I know she would have adored Jocelyn, Kaylen & Ryan.

Sometimes when I am tired of people she would of been the 1st person I talked to about it.

She could make me laugh.

Weekends!

I love the weekends. They are my the best.

Yesterday we did some running around and then went scalloping with Jason. Or should I say he went and did all the work and I chased Jocelyn around.

Today, Jason is going to occupy the kids while I do the floors (YEAH) because we have a BBQ tonight with a couple of the Coastie on island. Of course our neighbors are coming and the Ard's who are great (they have a little girl Joce's age and one on the way) and then we have a couple from the other station coming over. They are young, have a baby again Joce's age and a new one on the way and she HATES the island (man don't I know how she feels.) SO I want to make it so she likes the island!

Nantucket is a beautiful little rock! Hard at times but it has so many things to enjoy about it. So not being from here it is not easy to get use to this place. I hated it when we got here the 1st time. I then grew to love it. I met the greatest friends, and had the greatest time. I hope I can change her mind. :0)

School...

Why does it cost so much to have an education? I have been back and forth with going to school for yrs and now I think I am at the wits end with it. I have all the info to go, talked to admissions, have the web site for financial aid, but do I submitt everything, NO...why you ask...

because when I break it down like this 120 credits are needed for my Bachlors in Business. $250 per credit. That is 30,000.00 and with 2 kids that are going to need more then that for school...what the hell right do I have going?

UGG.... dudes going to call me back on Tuesday.