I just want to be clear that I don't want to be at work today.

LOL!

I want to be in my pj's on the couch w/ the kids & Jason.

Instead I am sitting at work, with all my stuff done, the phone isn't ringing, and I am here by myself.

tap tap tap tap tap....tap.

Jr Miss was this weekend. We had a blast. My girl was Brittany and I love that girl. She rocked the show. Her talent was killer, she sang Fever by Peggy Lee. Her fitness was one of the best up there! Her poise, beautiful.

The after party was one of the best times I had.

Surgery here I come...once again

Well in 7 weeks I am going under the knife yet again. This time I am not so happy about it. After losing almost 100lbs and actually starting to run my bum knee has start acting up again. The same knee I had operated on in jr high. So going in for an MRI and all the testing again brought back all my fears of what the dr was going to say....and to my surprise and his .. it didn't look AS bad as we thought. I am basically going in to have my knew shaved around, the cartilage clipped away and some other fun things. Down time...and this is where it killed me I should be up walking on Monday, but exercise wise aka running 3 f-ing months.

Kids are good. Busy as always.

We have a busy next few months w/ Ethan's bday, Thanksgiving, Hase's Bday, Christmas, New Years and Jocelyn's bday!


PCS list is submitted....now to wait till Jan-Mar to find out our next desination!

FAMILY

Main Entry: 1fam·i·ly
Pronunciation: \ˈfam-lē, ˈfa-mə-\
Function: noun
Inflected Form(s): plural fam·i·lies
Etymology: Middle English familie, from Latin familia household (including servants as well as kin of the householder), from famulus servant
Date: 15th century
1: a group of individuals living under one roof and usually under one head : household
2 a: a group of persons of common ancestry : clan b: a people or group of peoples regarded as deriving from a common stock : race
3 a: a group of people united by certain convictions or a common affiliation : fellowship b: the staff of a high official (as the President)
4: a group of things related by common characteristics: as a: a closely related series of elements or chemical compounds b: a group of soils with similar chemical and physical properties (as texture, pH, and mineral content) that comprise a category ranking above the series and below the subgroup in soil classification c: a group of related languages descended from a single ancestral language
5 a: the basic unit in society traditionally consisting of two parents rearing their children ; also : any of various social units differing from but regarded as equivalent to the traditional family : spouse and children
6 a: a group of related plants or animals forming a category ranking above a genus and below an order and usually comprising several to many genera bin livestock breeding (1): the descendants or line of a particular individual especially of some outstanding female (2): an identifiable strain within a breed
7: a set of curves or surfaces whose equations differ only in parameters
8: a unit of a crime syndicate (as the Mafia) operating within a geographic area

and to those of you who "THINK" you know what I am talking about you have NO idea. Mind your business!

Back ...

We are back from Disney and had a great time. Didn't want to leave!!

Dawn & Aaron thanks!!! You are the best!

The plane rides were easier then we thought. The weather was perfect (minus the rain) The company couldn't have been better. The kids in all were really really good. Dinner, since we had the dining plan was TOTALLY worth it!

ok..back to maxin & relax

oh and we submitted our picks today!

Just some ramblings....

How fast has summer gone...

it bothers me.. I can't believe its August already, in ways I am excited for things that are coming up but on the other hand... its all going too quick.

summer is "our" time. Our time to sit on the beach with great friends, sit by the fire and talk about our family and our goals. Laugh, and have a really good time. Not saying that winter is all bad nights and boring days, its just we all seem to be have more time together in the summer and of course this being our last summer on Nantucket, it saddens me. Of course...Ethan has the best of friends, along w/ me and Jay. Everyone loves Jocelyn and helps with her all the time. Makes me think how much I am going to miss this lil island we call HOME.

I love Jersey but I feel like sometimes its not home anymore. I mean I know in my heart its home but when everything on the home front isn't right...do you really want to call it home? Not so much, my family, I feel like it;s falling apart right in front of my eyes. Kids living at home, that hated home months ago, others not living at home that need to be, others think they can do better w/ out the family but sometimes cant.... is it my fault for leaving and it all going to hell. Is it my fault for getting out and leaving them behind... not sure. I am sorry if it is.. I love them with every breathe I take but I feel like its out of my hands now. No one talks anymore. Everyone lies.

To one of them: Go home...make up ... just suck it up and do good this yr, I know you can. I need you too. If you fail, I fail. and baby we don't fail! No matter what or who thinks we do. I love you more then you know... and I am always here, and if it gets too rough, call me...we can get threw this.

To the others: I am sorry that I am not there to bail you out... but you can get out of this shit yourself... I have taught you well. Sweet talk one and agree with the other. You know that they are "always" right. They are ours and there is NO changing this... they do love us and they do everything for us.

To one: you need to stop playing the field with all of "them" Choice who you want in your life...do NOT have all because one will get hurt, and the one that you played against will be there to clean it up....again.

My do we have to be this way....

be free. live your life. no matter how hard it is going to be. We will be fine. It's gonna hurt when it heals too. It'll all get better in time. And even though I really love you. I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to. It'll all get better in time.

Ree: thanks so much for always letting me cry. you are my world. since we were little you never judged me or my family. and I can't say thank you enough. you mean so much to me and my family. how many nights did I sleep on your couch. you never pushed me away or told me no. always let me go. and figure shit out on my own. but always were there to catch me when I fell. love for a friend, cousin, sister is what I have for you. its greater then most.